what am i turning into?
i don’t fucking care about school AT ALL. i let myself sink so low to the point where i’m stupider than i thought i could be. i eat. i sleep. i watch movies. i party. I PARTY HARD. i’m always in the mood for beer. or vodka. or weed. OR COKE.
not joking
it just disgusts me because i think i’m going fucking crazy. oh my god i have to take the worst shit of my life. brb
HOLY SHIT i haven’t been on this in so long
WELL let’s talk about life. shall we? i don’t like matt anymore because i’ve come to realize how much of a scumbag he really is. personality wise. i don’t like scumbags. nope, not at all.
anyways marty is such a good friend. he’s one of my best friends. katie, angel, marty. that’s how it is. he doesn’t know how much he means to me but if any girl fucks him over my foot will be right up their ass. period.
um i don’t really do anything with life but i want a boyfriend REAL bad. i want a happy boy that i can make even happier.
HAHA FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!
ive come to the conclusion i treat everyone around me like shit and that makes me feel like shit so it’s just a big giant shit fest
how awesome
do you know who i think is legit sexy? james murray. how fucking weird is that? i need to go to logans tonight because i need to get drunk oh my god im going to be an alcoholic when im older. i know it
dear you
i see you and i lose my breath and i want to be with you so bad but i cant and i wont and i dont want to be yes i do but seriously why what was wrong with me, im not like other girls im just not, i would have treated you well so well i just want you to hold me and kiss me and i want everything that was between to be there again, i want to have a relationship with you, i want to be that girl that sets you straight so you’re not a mother fucking man whore. i dont know how i got so involved with you, how we fucked because we never even talked before that night OMG WTF that makes me sound like such a whore, god damn i want to relive every moment with you, they play over and over in my head every single second of the day and you, you just never seem to leave my mind
it fucking sucks
yours truely rachael fucking quiter
im watching jerry springer and im quite excited about tonight because im sneaking out, stealing my moms car and driving to logans to get drunk
i wish someone cared about me the way jake scratch cares about angel
wait i wish someone just fucking cared
same shit different day
sleep, school, came home, washed dishes, waited til tom laid down to come on here then read. im doing absolutely nothing w/ my fucking life
i hate you but i want you
i hate you so fucking much but i want you so fucking bad
im going to cocos on saturday w/ marty to party ~
i never get to see or even talk to billy anymore which makes me very upset but i can’t do anything about it because he doesn’t even act like he cares
btw um nvm
